Fairy Land

Miss Bloggin...

2005-08-01T02:29:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Haven't been coming here for a very very very long time... Haha.. Really miss here... Just went to one of my friends' blog, and realised she have engaged.. Got a shock when I knew this.. But really feel happy for her. At least she have found someone she can live, depend on for the rest of her life.. Hee...

I Have My MP3... Yahooo...

2005-06-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yahooo... I finally have my mp3 player... I am so so so so elated.. Hahahaha.... Finally can have some entertainment during my journey home or to workplace.. Hahahaha...

Well, this week is a very very tiring week, as it is my BIRTHDAY WEEK.. Hahaha... Usually, other people will only spend one day to celebrate, but for me, I spend one whole week.. Haha... Well, this is because I got different groups of friends to celebrate with.. Haha.. Hmm... What a popular girl I am.. Hahaha.. Just kidding.. Anyway, this week is very tiring.. Nearly go home after midnight everyday.. And I think I spend a bomb on the cab fare itself.. Luckily, birthday usually come once a year, if not, I sure will spend all my money that I have earned on the cab fare.. Haha...

Besides celebrating my birthday, I also went for a job interview.. This is my first time using Chinese during the interview. Though it doesn't sound so formal during the interview, but I still feel a bit uneasy communicating Chinese for my interview. Well, doesn't really have placed a high exepectation for this job. So even if I didn't get it, I won't be that disappointing as I used to be...

Anyway, I have start looking for some full-time jobs. Really hope I can start a new chapter of my life. Haha... Now I am 20 le.. Need to really plan my future well.. Haha..

Me....

2005-06-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hee.. Me again... So long never blog le.. Hee...

Hm.. So sian.. Just perm my hair yesterday... Hm... Not too bad.. At least is a new look. Haha...

Well.. Birthday is coming.. Hm.. Wonder what surprises will I have... Haha.. Anyway, as long as I can celebrate with my friends, I am happy le... Hahaha

Lost...

2005-05-22T01:03:00.000+08:00

Lost.. Who can help me?? Haiz...

Feel like I am going nowhere.. Really hate this kind of feelings. Really on the verge on giving up. Can't find someone to talk to.. Where has all my friends gone to????

Feel so tired....

Feel So Light-Hearted Now...

2005-05-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

Since I came back from Redang, my feelings start to change a little. Feel so light-hearted now. Haha.. Maybe too tired in the past. Now lesser job, can rest more. Feel more relaxed.

Recently, have been thinking about joining a ministry in church. Still thinking whether should I join back choir ministry. Hm.. Pondering between choir and children church ministry. I guess I may need to speak to my leader about it. Have been lagging in the spiritual world. Sometimes, wanted to find someone to talk about it. But don't know who to approach. Haiz.. I guess I just need some time..

Well, time for reflection.. Will blog again.. Hee...

OoOoOoOo

2005-05-15T11:09:00.000+08:00

Hey, you know what. I have quit my pushcart job.. Suddenly feel so relaxed.. Haha.. I think I will work one job first. Guess I am too tired, need some rest in between. After my break, I will continue to work.. Hee...

Just back from Redang. Wow.. The place is so so so so nice, beautiful. I like it so much.. Though at first thought that I won't be enjoying myself. But when I am there, I feel so relaxed. Hee.. Love the sea so much, the sky, the fishes. Think I will be going back there soon.. Hee...

Well, yesterday went for Rev. Phil Pringle's service. It was great. Love the songs that they sang. And there is one song that really touch me, which is 'Thank You'. Really like it so much...

After yesterday's service, suddenly realise that I should move on. But sometimes I feel like I am stuck somehow. Wanting to get out, but it is so difficult. Anyway, I think I will have to talk to my leader. This kind of feeling is yucks. Wanna get out of it soon. Real soon.

Oh.. It's Me...

2005-05-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

Haha... Is me again.. Finally back to blog.. Recently, too tired.. Have been working two jobs and no break in between. Very very tired.. But trying to find some time to rest at the same time.. Hee... At least I still can maintain till now..

Well, think I am too stress in the month of April, keep eating alot in office. Haiz.. Getting fatter now.. Argh.. But I am trying very hard to lose weight le.. Hee.. Need to control my diet le.

Hm.. Next week going Pulau Redang.. But doesn't sound excited at all. Because of this trip, quarrel with my friends. Feel so physically and emotionally tired because of this matter. Actually, I don't feel like going. But in the end, I still compromise. Haiz.. Because of this trup, I also quarrel with my mother. Haiz. Though I know that place is a beautiful place, somehow or rather, I don't feel that excited at all. Haiz...

Anyway, I really don't care anymore. Since have made things turn sour, then let it be. I am also tired to do anything now. At most, I can do my stuff individually. Really hope I can find some peace there. Been went through a rather stressful month. So yearn to forget all these rubbish things.

Long Time Never Blog..

2005-04-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hey, I am back.. Haha.. Got miss me? Hee... Long time never come here and update le... A bit busy recently. After my last paper, I immediately went for work... And I am taking two jobs now.. Argh.. A bit tiring ah.. Working everyday... Hm... Got so much things to say but don't know start from where.. Haha...

Well, few days ago just receive my last semester result through SMS.. Haiz.. Didn't do really very well.. So a bit discouraging. Started to think what will I do if I didn't get into local university. Haiz.. I really want to carry on study.. Felt that I am still not ready to step into working world yet. Hm... Guess I can only continue waiting for the local university's acceptance or reject letter... Argh...

Currently, work at Maybank during weekdays and pushcart on weekends. Start to feeling of quiting the pushcart job. Recently, very agitated about the pushcart thingy. Haiz... Couldn't get my pay and scolded by something, which I didn't do before. I am so angry with that girl ah. Haiz.. But still must keep my cool, if not, I will be like an erupted volcano. Hahaha...

Well, got to stop here le.. Time to sleep.. Tomorrow have to wake up very very early ah.. Hee....

Boring Day....

2005-03-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

Argh... Today is so boring... Had my first paper... Guess didn't manage to do well.. Got quite a lot I don't know how to do.. Argh.. So sian....

After that went to my friend's house and watch vcd... At least managed to do something.. Haha... Next week is my last paper... After that must look for job le.. Haiz...

Wonder will I be able to continue to study or work?? I guess I will leave this answer to God. I know He already has a plan for me. So I will accept whatever He give me.. Yeah...

I am BACK!!!

2005-03-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

Haha.. I am so excited. Finally manage to online after a long long long period.. Today so exciting.. I reformat my computer by myself.. Have a sense of achievement..

One thing I realise is that reformatting isn't a difficult thing to do. A normal person will also know how to do. Just can't understand why those technicians can charge $50 for just reformatting.. Haiz.. I rather do myself.. Yeah...

So long never online.. Though miss quite a number of friends, but I do achieve quite a number of things.. Haha.. Really feel so happy now.. HAHAHAHA

First Day of New Year

2005-02-09T23:25:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Finally is the first day of new year.. so excited... haha... Today i take the longest time to prepare myself before going out.. haha..

Hm.. Got quite a number of red packets.. haha... Wonder how much will i get.. heee.... But today very tiring ah... Went to two houses.. haha.. And we keep taking cab to and fro. haha.. And there is one driver even forget to turn on the meter.. haha.. so funny..

Well, got to take some rest.. Tomorrow is another long day...

It's New Year Eve...

2005-02-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

Can you believe it? I am cleaning my room in the middle of the night.. haha... Ridiculous right?? No choice. Got to do some last minute shopping again.. Argh... Can you imagine? I buy quite a lot of clothes, but realise that can't really match.. Oh no..

I am so sad.. haiz... Got to buy shoes, clothes later... argh...

Come back to you later.. Got to clean up my room.. If not it will be very very very very messy.. hee...

I Am Back..

2005-02-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

Haha.. I am back.. Change my skin again.. haha.. Now so sian now.. My blog is so empty.. Lost some of my friends blog address. argh.. Someone help me to add music.. It is so dead...

January....

2005-01-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging since christmas... Very very busy.... Busy with school work, projects and work.. Need to juggle quite a number of things...

Hm.. Time passes... In two months time, I will be graduating.. Oh no.. What am I going to do??? I also don't know.. Quite clueless of my future...

Further studies in local university; Further studies in overseas; Find a related job... Argh.. I think I only have these few choices.. Haiz.. If I wanna further studies, I am not sure whether I could even get into a local university... Haiz..

Dun wanna think le.. Too tired... I think I need a break...

Or maybe I need someone to help me???

Anybody there to help????

Merry Belated Christmas...

2004-12-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

Haha... Yesterday is Christmas.. So exciting.. Went to meet my poly friends to have some gift exchanges.. And got some great presents.. Hee....

After that went to meet my another friend.. He tour me around changi airport... What an exciting trip.. Haha.. We really crap alot yesterday..

It was so fun yesterday.. Thanks to all my friends for making my day yesterday.. Love you all.... Muacks...

A Tiring Day...

2004-12-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

It's me again.. Today really very tired... Went to a lot of places.. First went to Tampines Mall to have lunch with one of my friends, then went to Bugis to meet my poly friend to get back my survey questions for my project. After that still need to shop for christmas gifts for my poly friends.. Then went to church for service..

Argh.. So tiring.. And the worse thing is my shoes are hurting me.. I get my blisters from wearing my new shoes.. Argh... Haiz... Anyway, today really blessed b the message.. Haha.. So still not so bad. At least got some gains after a long day.. Haha...

Time for me to go again.... Ciao...

Last Day of My First Week School

2004-12-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

Wow... Today is already Friday.. Time passed so fast.. First week of my school have already gone.. Got to really treasure the time I left from now on...

This semester is a really very very very very busy semester. I have to cope with my studies, cca, final year project and work at the same time.. It is very challenging for me.. As I have so many things, I really hope that those people who are trying to find trouble for me to stay away from me.. 'Cause I know that I would blow up my temper anytime... I really need total concentration during this period of time.

I really want to make use of my last semester results to get into a good university.. So I hope that those people out there who want to find trouble, STAY AWAY... If not, you will regret it for life. Hahaha.. (Sounds very evil, right??) But it is really very true, I really don't want anyone to disturb me.. So people out there who want to find trouble, go find someone else to entertain you. I don not have so much free time to entertain clowns...

Yesterday, nearly quarrel with someone.. But frankly speaking, I am boiling hot. I have no idea what this person is thinking and I am in real shocked when this person could give me some stupid answers. Anyway, is all over now.. Let's just hope that this kind of stupid thing won't happen again..

Argh... Today's mind in a confusing state.. Need to design my publicity poster yesterday night. But couldn't finish on time due to some stupid reasons, so have to wake up early in the morning and do. Had a few hours sleep. Really very very exhausted.

When will the time when people around me will start to put my situation in their shoes? Today, during lecture, my lecturer said something like, 'Whatever patient you counsel, you will never understand what they feel unless you are in the same situation as them. The only way to resolve is to put yourself in other people's shoes.' Really find these words very meaningful and real. Indeed, you will never know how the person really feel unless you go through it yourself. I guess that's how misunderstanding begins.

Sometimes, I am so sick of church people. Don't misunderstand me, I didn't mean all the church people, I only mean a small number of people. It is just that no matter how many times you tell them what you actually go through, they will never never understand what are you trying to say. Even worse, some will give some remarks that is so horrible to be accept. Haiz.. Sometimes, I feel those unchurched people seemed to be more understanding than the churched. Is this the way it should be? Shouldn't be it in the other way round?

Oops.. Just realise that I have written a rather long post.. Hee... Well, I think I better stop here.. If not, I will ended up scolding people here.. Haha...

3 Days Before School Starts...

2004-12-03T13:24:00.000+08:00

Hm.. Guess where am I?? Hee... I am at school cyber centre.. haha.. Waiting for my friend to come.... Argh... Me so bored now..

Three more days before school starts.. Time passed so fast. This gonna be my last semester in poly.. Hm.. Kinda miss the life.. Haha... So gonna work hard and make this last semester a happening one.. Haha...

Hope I can really get into NTU or NUS.. Haha.. Really wanna try the living of an uni student.. Should be more fun than poly life.. Haha.. Ok, enough crap.. Got to go le.. See ya..

Back Again...

2004-11-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

Nowadays, have been busy with my cca.... Very very tired ah.. And I got sun burn, which is the last thing that I want.. But no choice, my cca requires me to stay outdoor most of the time.. haiz...

These few days of training, allow me to know more friends from another cca.. It is a really a blessing to know so many of them.. And I have totally change my impression of that cca.. Isn't that amazing?? Hee...

Well, got to start school soon.. Hm.. Kinda of anticipating.. Hee.. Feel great to be back in school. But only left 1 semester.. Haiz.. Time passed so fast.. Guess I will be missing my school... Hee.. Really regret that I join the cca late.. Should join early so that I can enjoy my poly years.. Hee...

Well, I got to stop here now... Need to do some of my final year project... Argh... But I will still enjoy it.. 'Cause this is my last semester to enjoy poly life.. Got to make it happening.. Yeah!!!

Erm.. Undescrible Feelings...

2004-11-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hm.. Don't know how to describe my feelings.. I feel so confused suddenly.. Sometimes I feel that my past is haunting me, I think I going to break down soon.. I really don't want this to hinder my relationship.. It is affecting me a lot.. Maybe it is time that I should bring my past to God.. And let Him handle all these.. Just like what Dr. Robb Thompson said. Feel that it is so true...

Well, have been busy with my work, cca and my project at the same time.. It is very tiring and physically straining.. But I still have to persevere on.. Shouldn't give up so easily, right??? I got to train myself to be strong, and independent.. Shouldn't rely on people so much.. Got to rely on God.. He is the only person that won't let me down.. But can I still love Him the way I love Him in the beginning.. Perphaps it is time to find back my first love.

My dream is still far away from me... I got to keep moving on... If not my dream will not come to past...

Desires...

2004-11-21T13:02:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary,

Yesterday went for service. Pastor mentioned about 7 steps to release your faith... The first step is 'Desires'. This word keeps on repeating itself in my mind. I was wondering what are my desires yesterday. Pastor actually ask us to write down our desires on the offering envelope. To my surprise, i actually wrote 'Lead worship in front of thousands people'. Singing is something that i want to use to serve God. But sometimes i feel that i am just like a little mermaid. Because of love, i lost of my voice. I do not mean i physically lost my voice, is just that you can't really sing from your heart.

I wonder where has my real voice gone to. Really want it back. I actually very very discourage that i can't get into the choir. Friends told me that i can try again next time. But i feel that maybe God doesn't want me to get into the choir at all. Or maybe i am not that spiritually well.. Indeed, i am still very very very discourage.....

Yesterday, took shuttle bus home. Sitting behind me is one group of people. I think they are in the same cell group. So envy of them. They can go home together and fellowship at the same time. I think even how hard i try, there is still a gap between me and the rest of the cell group people. Starting to feel discourage...

Oh... Tired... Argh...

2004-11-20T01:32:00.000+08:00

Oh... wat a tiring day... today really very busy.. first in the morning, i have to go work.. then still mux rush down to my friend's chalet to celebrate his birthday.. then supposed to rush down to sentosa to help my friend's cca.. but it is cancelled due to the rain... humph.. wonder is it consider a blessing?? hee...

Actually, quite tired to go to the sentosa after the chalet.. so really don't feel like going down.. cox by the time i reach home, it will be saturday morning.. :P

Thank god. it is cancelled last minute.. hee.... well, now got to do some research on the my final year project.. a bit stress ah.. so many things need to be done.. and is like not enough time for me.. haiz....

I Am Finally Back...

2004-11-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

Haha... finally got chance to write... recently just went to see a movie, 'Princess's Diary: Royal Engagement'.. a very nice movie.. really laugh out loud... and i like the song very very much.. haha....

By the way, check out this song 'Breakaway' by Kelly Clarkson... really very nice..

Here's the lyrics.. Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Heee.....

2004-11-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

Guess where am i now? i am in school library.... hee.. take a break from my cca training workshop.. me so tired now... haiz.... later must go eat with instructor... so tiring ah. and the sun is so sunny.. argh..... luckily today is the last day.. finally can have some rest after this evening... yeah.. ok.. can't use the computer for too long le.. need to go back soon le... hee....

Tired...

2004-11-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

This week is quite a tiring week... got training workshops this whole week... argh... at the same time, i also need to work... so physically quite straining le.. hee.. really got to rest alot... haha..

Today celebrate my cca friend's brithday.. so funny.. haha... wonder what we should do to sabotage him.. haha.... hm.. really got to think some very lame ways to sabotage.. haha.... yeah...

I Am So Happy....

2004-10-25T01:13:00.000+08:00

Haha.. don't know.. me in such a good mood today... hee... really really very happy.. haha... and i also finish reading one great book... haha.. the story is really very interesting.. haha... right now i got 5 hello kitty.. got 11 more to collect.. hee... wonder who will help me eat.. hee...

Tomorrow need to work... argh.. a bit tired le.. because haven't off since 16 October.. maybe my body can't really adapt le.. but i must endure on... argh... got to catch some sleep le.. if not, i got no mood to work.. hee.... :P

Oh... Long Time Haven't Update...

2004-10-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

Oh... long time neve come in to update le... recently a bit busy... need to rush my proposal.. haha.. later need to go to school and print.. argh.. tired ah.. later have to go work... oh.....

Hm... recently macdonald start to sell hello kitty.. hee... they are so cute.. really wanna collect all.. but i need to eat the meals everyday.. argh.. me so scare of putting on weight.. haiz.. wonder if my friends can help me.. hee.. anyway, i already got three.. haha... really hope can collect all. haha...

Haiz.. me so tired now. think i must go bath le.. then can prepare to go to school.. hm... must plan what to do next.. haha...

Good Things To Introduce...

2004-10-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

Recently have been watching one Taiwan drama show. it is called 'Dou Yu'.. this is a very nice and very very touching.. guys, if you are watching this blog.. i really really encourage you all to go and watch this vcd.. it is a really very nice show..

Besides that, i also have buy the soundtrack.. it is really very nice... really like the songs inside.. hee...

Below is one of the lyrics that is very meaningful...

Title: Breathe Again

Have You Wondered How It Feels When It's All Over
Wondered How It Feels When You Just Have To Start A New
Never Knowing Where You're Going
When You Face A Brand New Day
It Used To Be That Way
Now I Just Close My Eyes And Say

I Just Want To Breathe Again
Learn To Face The Joy And Pain
Discover How To Laugh A Little, Cry A little
Live A Little More
I Just Wanna Face Today
Forget About The Woes Of Yesterday
Maybe If I Hope A Little
Try A Little More
I'll Breathe Again

Starting Out Again Is Never Easy
Disappointments Come And Go But Life Still Moves On
With A Bit Of Luck
It's A Brand New Start
That Might Just Work My Way
No Need To Walk Away
Don't Want To Live On Life Replay

Things Will Work Out Fine
If You Can Find The Courage To Look Past The Night
To See The Break Of Dawn

:(

2004-10-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. today mood is really very very down... i guess i am just too tired of everything.. i am very very tired.. all i do now is just keep me occupied with a lot a lot of things, so that i won't keep thinking a lot of things.

I guess i need to find a lot a lot of things to do.. how i wish i can forget everything and start everything all over again. my SATS is coming.. i start to lose my confidence.. i am afraid that i won't make it this time again.. haiz... who can help me? i guess only i can help myself...

I decided to depend on myself.. i do not want to rely on anyone again. i want to be indepedent. humans are not reliable to count on.. one day, they will leave you and disappoint you..

.....

2004-10-05T23:55:00.001+08:00

Oh... it's been quite some time since i last write it.. hm... this few weeks, have been quite moody.. don't really know what i want in life.. going to graduate soon le.. but keed pondering whether should i further my studies or not.. haiz.. keep thinking a lot of things.. my mind and heart is very messy..

Think it gonna take some time for me to settle down.. haiz.. now the most important thing is to re-decorate my room.. i wanna have a new look.. hee... this is the place where i will vent all my unhappiness, angry out.. so it gonna look nice, pretty. hee...

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2004-10-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

Mummy's Birthday

2004-10-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

Today is my mum's birthday.. hee.. went to Lau Pa Sat and eat.. haha.. today should be a happy day.. but i just can't be happy today... just don't know what is happening inside my mind and heart..

Feel so hurt.. haiz.. once heard a saying before, if you are being hurt deeply before, you won't be able to feel hurt as you are being numb to it.. wonder if this saying is true....

Haiz.. don't feel like writing anymore.. just not in a good mood to write anything...

Tired...

2004-09-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

Today is a tiring day.. last minute need to go work at an earlier time.. argh.. thought can rest before i went to work.. hm.. but never mind.. there isn't much people also.. so relax a bit.. hee.. today sales aren't that good.. haiz.. got to push some sales tomorrow le.. argh..

Going to holiday soon.. yeah.. can work more days le.. haha.. but at the same time, got to graduate soon also.. argh... don't know what i should do after that.. feel like going for further studies.. but financial is a problem.. haiz.. wondering whether i can get the scholarship or not.. but i guess the chances are very slim.. haiz.. sad..

Dont't feel like writing le... wanna rest early.. the next day got to work...

Happy Day....

2004-09-16T01:55:00.000+08:00

Today went to a lot of places.. Argh.. my legs are aching le.. too tired ah... this morning, went to siglap to eat noodles with my friends.. waited for the noodles for 30 minutes.. after that, went to hospital.. managed to do some catching up with my friend, who is going back to UK soon.. hee...

After that, went to one of my friends' house to take some things.. their house is too 'nice-smelling'.. hee... it is just a typical guy's room.. haha.. oops.. didn't mean to condemn the guys.. hee..

After that accompany them to look for jobs.. guess what, it was raining.. argh.. what a lousy day to look for job when it was raining.. haiz.. but nevertheless, they managed to find a job.. so still not so bad.. hee..

Then went to meet my poly friends to go for the lantern festival.. hee.. then we went for supper at Lau Pa Sat.. haha.. it was a truly very interesting meal.. haha.. got one auntie there nearly scare my friend.. cox this auntie suddenly talk very loudly behind her back, then she got a shock.. haha.. it was so funny.. we had kang kong, oyster omelette, sotong, stingray and 'la la'.. haha... it was so delicious.. haha..

Then it was time to go home le.. nearly went for clubbing since it is ladies night today.. haha.. anyway, we didn't go.. we decide to go on 6 Oct.. haha.. yeah..

But now need to do my research again.. hee..

Sad Story

2004-09-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

Since today is a sad day, i have one sad story below.. it is actually a Korean song.. but i managed to find an English version.. it is very meaninful...

Everyday Without You
The road home is always far, it's a pity words are few
In a single-person dinner, the flavor is only loneliness
At my side, I see the movie repeating, it belongs to our frame
Why do eyes that choose to avoid still cry tears?

Loving you everyday, you are my world
At that time, I still thought I would only love this once
Everyday without you, happiness is so far away from me
My heart has already left with you, what can I still use to feel?

I can't bear to open my eyes, afraid that you're not by my side
Perhaps in dreams, the distance between us is the closest
I miss your warm palms, I'm embraced by a cold wind
When winter comes again, how will this temperature continue?

Thank you for having loved me, giving me a most beautiful experience*
But life loves to be deprived, how should I walk these future roads?

Sad Day....

2004-09-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Today, i am very sad.... the one whom i love most hurt me the deepest. don't know what happen.. had the biggest quarrel... haiz.. just keep crying and crying.. hope my eyes will not swollen tomorrow.. haiz.. i am very sad, very sad... wonder why this happen to me....

Tired....

2004-09-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, went my friend's house to prepare the food for the BBQ today... it was very fun yesterday.. haha... but i ended home late, so get scolding from my mum.. haiz.. but never mind leh... used to it le.. haha...

Today need to go for blood screening with my friend.... haiz.. (if you want to know the reason, come and find me.. hee..) after that need to go for the BBQ thing at East Coast... argh... so tired ah.. wonder will it take a long time.. hee...

Now must rush my SIP report.. argh... so many reports coming up.. haiz... sian sia... haha... don't talk le.. need to go do my report le.. if not time le.. hee..

What A Day....

2004-09-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today, went to school for a 30 minutes lecture.. haiz.. it was just wasting my time ah... then went to eat pastamania with my friends...
Didn't really do much of the research today... oh no... got to go back to school and do tomorrow... argh...
Don't know what to say ah... feel so tired and there are so many things to do... argh...
Have been thinking a lot of things these few days... wonder what's happen on my mind... haiz... sometimes, i will keep seeing scenes that i don't want to see... feel so miserable when i see all these.. but have to hide it. can't really show it out... haiz... want to avoid also can't... why is this happening?? haiz...

我真开兴。。。

2004-09-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

今天，心情真好。。刚刚download 华语软件。。。so i am using it to type my blog.. wonder what it will appear on my blog.. hee.... anyway, today is my first day back to school... the feeling is so strange.. a lot of unfamiliar faces around the school campus.. suddenly feel so old.. hee... anyway, i only come back to campus to study for this one month.. after that is holiday time.. yeah.. me so happy...

Hm... don't know what to write.. haha... too happy le... :)

Erm..... A Blur Day...

2004-09-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

Today, as usual, stay at home for the first half of the day.. after that went to school to do some printing.. but didn't manage to finish.. haiz.. so i have to go back again to print.. Argh... so troublesome...

After that, went to meet my friend to go for facial.. then we go for a short walk... hee... then went back to tampines to meet my mother and sister... hee....

Today is just a blur blur day for me... first, i suppose to return the money to my lecturer, but i can't the money in my bag.. so i keep searching for it.. but after some time, i realised that the money wasn't inside my bag... at that time, i am so panic... i quickly called my sister and ask her to help me search for me.. then i realised that it was left on my bed.. hee... (me very blur hor...)

After that, i went to deposit some money using the ATM machine. after i take the receipt, i just walk away, didn't even realised that i actually forget to take out my ATM card. thank God, that there is one guy who is just behind me, ran after me and return my card to me.. hee... if not, i guess i will be scolded by my mum.... hee...

i guess the guy must be thinking what on earth do i have on mind at that time to be so engrossed in it, and forget to take the card.. hee... guess, today i really think a lot... my brain can't just stop thinking about all the things around me.. (Argh..)

Well, is time for my brain to rest le.. hee.... if not, tomorrow i will be doing some stupid things again.. hee...

S.l.a.c.k D.a.y

2004-09-02T12:36:00.000+08:00

Today, just rot at home.. feel like working.. but my part time job haven't start... haiz.. don't like the feeling of staying at home and there's nothing for me to do.. haiz.. guess must start to find things to do le..

Yesterday was my last day of my attachment.. really miss that place and the people there.. haiz.. there's a tinge of sadness, when i leave that place. but i will go back at the end of this year to do my final year project with my supervisor again.. yeah.. me so happy.. haha...

Hm... guess later must go back to school to do some research for my upcoming project again.. (Argh....) but never mind, better than nothing to do right?? hee...

Well, got to go now to prepare my things le.. hee...

Finally Can Write.. Hee...

2004-08-31T18:27:00.000+08:00

Wah.... finally can come and update my blog le.. hee.. these few days have been rushing project.. very busy ah... ARGH... finally is over.. haha.. but i think i didn't really do very well for this project... haiz.... quite sad... the worse thing is i hand it late.. (oh no..) so i today quickly call my lecturer and explained why i have handed it late.. thank God that he didn't mark my group down.. (yeah....)

Tomorrow will be my last day at work... hm.. quite sad about it.. as the people there were really nice... there's goes the same for my supervisor.. so today went to buy something for them with joyce... hm.. we bought chocolate leh.. maybe tomorrow i can also have some.. hee... well, i also intend to make a card for my supervisor and pass it to her tomorrow... actually, intended to do a cross stitch for her, but time is running out.. so have to save this until we finished our final year project with her.. hee...

Well, got to go do my stuffs le.. if not, not enough time ah.. hee.... :P

Oh no.. Time Is Running Out...

2004-08-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

Oh... today is sunday... still have one day before my dateline.. ARGH.... hope i can finish everything on time.. really very tired now...

Yesterday went for service.. pastor taught us 6 Don'ts in handling hurts.. really blessed by the message.. and make me realise that i do have hurts.. and i will either ignore or hide it... guess it really takes time to face the hurt that i have.. and facing hurt, sometimes need some courage, don't you think so??

Hm.. guess after rushing the project, it will be time for me to really evaluate my own life and deal with issues that i have ignored for a long long time...

Hope He can give me the courage and boldness....

I Need Massage... Hee....

2004-08-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

Wah.. my shoulders now very ache ah.. need someone who is kind enough to massage for me.. hee...

Today quite busy.. do a lot of things in hospital... generate reports for my supervisor, do some auditing for the nursery rooms... managed to see some new born babies... oh my.. they are cute.. hee... how i wish that i can work in this environment, facing all these babies.. hee...

Went to cell group after that... it is a combined cell group meetings.. quite a number of youth cell groups came together.. and we went to bible house for the meeting.. it was my first time going to the bible house.. hm.... it is a very interesting and so called practical stuffs.. hee.... i nearly laughed all the way sia.. haha...

Well, wanna stop writing le.. 'cause i am tired le.. hee... wanna take a break and then continue with my project... really pray that God will give me the strength to pull ah... 'God, Help Me!!!'

What A Long Day....

2004-08-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hm... two days never come update le... got a lot of things to say ah.... Erm.. let me talk about yesterday first... hee..

Yesterday, my friend came to my house to use my computer to do his project... so didn't really have chance to do my own project... after that went back to hospital in the evening to attend an talk.. this talk is about delivery of a baby.. i actually wanted to watch it real life... but my supervisor said that no mother would allow me to enter in the delivery suite.. so i need to watch it on the video, thus i went for the talk yesterday... the whole session was very interesting.. really learned quite a number of things.. though i wouldn't be able to use it now.. but i finally can understand the pain that any mother would go through during labour... suddenly, feel that my mum was very brave.. hee.... and besides that, i met a guy, he was very handsome, but too bad he is married le.. hee... but i believe i will find my prince someday.. hee...

Well, today is a very tiring day... got a lot of things to do in the hospital... argh.... (someone help me please....) for lunch, we went out with our supervisor... we walked from our hospital to braddell mrt station.. erm.. it wasn't that far too.. still managed to walk until there.. haha... she actually wanted to buy us lunch, but too bad, we paid first.. hee... so she decided to buy us durian puffs from Emicakes.. wow.. i am so happy.. that is my favourite.. hee... really thank her a lot... hee.. after that, need to go to Lions Home (Toa Payoh) to review the MNA results to them... after that, went to see some of the residents... ooo.. and time passed so fast.. it is time for us to go home.. yeah.. hee

Well, now have to really to do my project.. wonder can i have some sleep??? really feel very tired now.. but still got a lot of things haven't do.. haiz.. i need help... argh....

Time to stop... hope tomorrow will be a better day.. hee...

What A Day...

2004-08-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

Hey, guys.. came across this song recently... it is a very nice song.. here is the lyrics.. can try to find the song too.. hee..

Today too tired to say anything le... hee...

Song Title: Cross My Heart
By: A*Teens

H.o.l.d. M.e. C.l.o.s.e.
B.a.b.y. H.o.l.d. M.e. T.i.g.h.t.
C.a.u.s.e. I'.v.e. G.o.t. S.o.m.e.t.h.i.n.g. T.o. S.a.y. T.o.n.i.g.h.t.

H.e.a.r. M.e. O.h.
B.a.b.y. H.e.a.r. M.e. T.h.r.o.u.g.h.
I.t.'s. O.n.l.y. W.o.r.d.s. B.u.t. T.h.e. W.o.r.d.s. A.r.e. T.r.u.e.

Y.o.u. A.r.e. M.y. S.u.n. U.p. I.n. T.h.e. S.k.y.
A S.h.o.u.l.d.e.r. W.h.e.n. I C.r.y.
M.y. C.a.n.d.l.e. I.n. T.h.e. N.i.g.h.t.
Y.o.u. A.r.e. M.y. L.a.u.g.h.t.e.r. I.n. T.h.e. R.a.i.n.
A S.h.e.l.t.e.r. F.r.om. T.h.e. P.a.i.n.
M.y. A.n.g.e.l. I.n. D.i.s.g.u.i.s.e.

C.r.o.s.s. M.y. H.e.a.r.t.
T.h.e.r.e.'s. N.o.t.h.i.n.g. T.h.a.t. C.a.n. M.a.k.e. U.s. P.a.r.t.
I.'m B.y. Y.o.u.r. S.i.d.e.
G.i.v.e. M.y. W.o.r.d.
T.h.a.t. N.o. O.n.e. I.n. T.h.i.s. W.h.o.l.e. W.i.d.e. W.o.r.l.d.
C.a.n. C.h.a.n.g.e. W.h.a.t. I.'m. F.e.e.l.i.n'.
I.'m. H.i.g.h. O.n. B.e.l.i.e.v.i.n'.
I.n. L.o.v.e, I.n. L.o.v.e, I.n. L.o.v.e, I.n. L.o.v.e.

I M.a.k.e. A P.r.o.m.i.s.e. I M.a.k.e. A V.o.w.
I S.w.e.a.r. M.y. L.o.v.e. T.o. Y.o.u. H.e.a.r. A.n.d. N.o.w. H.e.a.r.t. T.o. H.e.a.r.t.
B.a.b.y. E.y.e. T.o. E.y.e.
Y.o.u. A.n.d. M.e. T.i.l.l. T.h.e. D.a.y. W.e. D.i.e.
P.r.o.m.i.s.e. Y.o.u. T.h.a.t. I
W.i.l.l. C.a.t.c.h. Y.o.u. W.h.e.n. Y.o.u. F.a.l.l. H.e.a.r. Y.o.u. W.h.e.n. Y.o.u. C.a.l.l.
I.'l.l. A.l.w.a.y.s. B.e. A.r.o.u.n.d.

C.o.m.e. W.h.a.t.e.v.e.r, A.n.d. C.o.m.e. W.h.a.t. M.a.y.
E.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.'s. G.o.n.n.a. B.e. O.k.a.y.
A.l.l. T.h.e. W.a.y.
B.a.b.y. A.l.l. T.h.e. T.i.m.e.
A.l.l. W.e. N.e.e.d. I.s.
Y.o.u.r. L.i.p.s. A.n.d. M.i.n.e.
Y.o.u. A.r.e. M.y. S.u.n. U.p. I.n. T.h.e. S.k.y.
A S.h.o.u.l.d.e.r. W.h.e.n. I C.r.y.
M.y. C.a.n.d.l.e. I.n. T.h.e. N.i.g.h.t.
Y.o.u. A.r.e. M.y. L.a.u.g.h.t.e.r. I.n. T.h.e. R.a.i.n.
A S.h.e.l.t.e.r. F.r.o.m. T.h.e. P.a.i.n.
M.y. A.n.g.e.l. I.n. D.i.s.g.u.i.s.e.

Today = Slack

2004-08-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hm.. today quite slack.. wake up quite late this morning.... then type and edit some of the recipes... rather a short day.. why weekends is usually shorter that weekdays... (hee.. common phrase for most people,right? haha..)

Well, went out today to go for a 'short' walk.. turn out to be watching movie.. hee.. unpredictable right?? actually plan to go out for a while, to relax a bit.. these few days rather stress... got a lot of things to do ah... need to rush my project and some reports... Argh....

Really tired ah... so intend to go out for a 'short' walk with my friend.. but we end up watching movie.... hee... hm... the show is not bad... haha.... really enjoy today.... hee....

Hm.. got to go back and do my work le.. hee... cya....

Tiring Day....

2004-08-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

Just came back from church service.. today is a very long service, 3 hours in the church auditorium... wah.. can't imagine that i could stay inside for so long...

Today Rev. Ulf Ekman talk about the gifts of the Holy Spirit... he didn't cover all the gifts, as there isn't much time for him to preach for long.. he also lay hands on the new believers for them to receive the Holy Spirit.. it is a really great service... and the praise and worship was really great... it was conducted by Hillsongs United... really can sense the power of God.. some of the songs i didn't hear before... but guess what, i still managed to sing along.. wow.. that is really amazing... heee...

Well, after service, need to return call to my friend.. she starts to ask me things about the project.. wah.. that is really stress... the project i didn't really start yet... but i thank God that He gave me a clear mind, so that i know what is expected in this report.. though i haven't really started my project, i already helping my friends along with the project... really thank God for the wisdom that He has gave me... hee...

Haiz.. it is a really long day for me.. i am now physically very tired.. i pray that God will give me strength to last for a few hours more, as i really need to get started on my report..

So, now i have to stop here le.. if not, can't really sleep tonight... hee.... cya

Tired Day....

2004-08-21T15:18:00.000+08:00

Today is saturday.. went to school early in the morning.. accompany my friend to pay her school fees.. then went to cyber centre to print my things and help my friend to print out his research...

After that, went for my cca.. didn't expected that the crowd can be so small.. but still, we do enjoy ourselves.. hee... we played some funny games.. though it was only a few people, it was very funny.. hee... i laughed all the way.. hee... (typical of me)...

Well, after that went for lunch with them.. didn't manage to eat my laksa. haiz.. me so sad ah...

Now have to do some of my research of my project... haiz.. didn't have much time left le.. 30 august got to hand in the report.. wah.. time passed so fast sia....

Hm... later must prepare myself to go to church le.. today is Rev. Ulf Ekman preach.. really looking forward to his preaching.. he is a greater preacher... really like his preaching.. hee..

Well, can't talk much now le.. got to finish up my work.. continue tonight.. hee....

It's Finally Back

2004-08-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

Wow, my blog is finally back.. hee... for the past few days, my blog is blank... it really scare me.. because that day i used one whole day to do, and i am quite satisfied with it... hee.. so i really like it very much also... hee.. And my blog is back now.. hee... i am so happy... yeah....

Today is a real busy day... got a lot of things to do... project dateline is coming, and i am the ombud person, which means that i need to compile 6 people's reports and powerpoint slides... wah.. can you imagine?? guess, i will be real busy for this whole week... really pray that God will give me His strength.. hee....

Hm... i guess i need to go back to do my work now le... will miss this blog... hee....

(Try to leave message, this is one of my favourite blog... Got my favourite song also.. hee...)

Me So Happy :)

2004-08-18T16:37:00.000+08:00

Wow.. manage to finish this new blog.. it's been a long time since i change my blog.. manage to find this skin that i like it very much.. haha... really hope you guys will like it too... hee....

And i also manage to find the song that i like it a lot a lot.. hee.. today is my lucky day ah..... well, do leave any comments... hee....

Hm... today never go work... but need to find some recipes for my supervisor... supposedly i have to go school and find some of the recipes, but i am too lazy to do so.. hee... but i guess i still need to go to the library later on to find some recipes, if not, i can't hand up my work on time.. hee...

Besides this, i still got my project.. haiz... really very lazy to do the project.. wondering where should i start doing.. haiz.. i guess i need to start doing my work.. if not, i can't really finish... wondering why am i so lazy.. hee....

Well, guess i must be start doing my work le.. if not today can't sleep early.. hee.... cya..

Hey... I am back....

2004-08-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

Finally, i can update my blog le.. haha... have been very busy these few days.... and time passed so fast... my attachment is going to over soon.... erm..... kinda miss the place... hee... the supervisor really treat us very good... hope there is a chance to work for her next time....

Luckily, we will be having our final year project with her.. it is a really blessing to work with her... guess this project is gonna to be interesting.. hee.....

But after the final year project, i will be graduating.. wondering what should i do after that??? should i further studies or work??? can't really made up my mind.. haiz.... i guess i should start thinking about it le...

Well, time for me to continue to do my work le, if not i can't finish my work in time.. hee.....

Wah.. Long Time Never Update....

2004-08-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

Hey, today 11 August is my happiest day.... meet my friend, who just came back from UK for vacation.... had a cursh on him when i am year 1... but really surprised that we actually maintained this friendship till now.. really treasure this friendship as it comes really sudden...

Today, we just walk around TM and talk along the way... after that, went to my favourite cafe (Starbucks) and drink my favourite coffee (Caramel)... suddenly feel so 'xin fu'... hee....

Really chat a lot with him.... and i am really happy as he sacrifice his time to accompany me today.. really appreciate it alot... but too bad, we do not have camera, if not we will take a picture and keep it as a momento

Really hope this friendship could last.. hee..... really happy today.... i think today is one of the most happiest day in my life... hee....

Finally Is Sunday

2004-07-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

Wow.. finally is sunday and i can rest at home.. haha.. it's been a long week for me... need to do quite a number of things this week... yesterday was a real tired day for me.. for the whole day, i went to school for my cca open house.. morning was a quite nice weather as there was no sun and cloudy.. a perfect day to lie in bed.. haha.. however, i still in to stay in school for my cca. and the sun actually come out in the end, causing the weather to be quite hot and after the programme, my face was very very red and hot... haiz... quite a number of freshies came and we had a lot fun playing those high elements.. and i managed to play 'flying fox'.. i am so happy as this is the first time playing this.. it is so fun playing this.. really hope that i will have another chance playing this.. hee....
Yesterday also went for service.. thought that i would fall asleep, but luckily i didn't... hee... the sermon was very interesting... i was laughing all the way during the service.. hee..
Well, i guess is time for me to do my things le... will try to update my latest news.. haha

Hee.. I Am Back...

2004-07-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

Wow.. miss u guys ah... so long never come and update le... hee.. well, a lot of things happen recently..

Firstly, is my computer spoilt.. my monitor can't work after the reformatting, then my keyboard doesn't work.. haiz.. so many bad things happen to my dear computer.. so poor thing... now still waiting for my new cpu to be send back so that i can use again.. hee..

Well, last saturday went for my cca open house.. though there are not a lot of people come, but we do enjoy ourselves... guess what?? i finally overcome my fear.. hee.. i am so happy.. i never know that once you overcome something that you are afraid of, you will feel so great... hee.. after that, need to rush down to service... phew.. it is truly indeed a very rush day for me.. during the service, it talk about mission fund.. it is truly a great service.. hee.... :)

During this week, went to Ling Kwang Home again.. it is truly my first nursing home that i really don't wish to come back again.. the nurses there are truly indeed unfriendly, thank god that there are still some who will offer help to us.. really grateful to these nurses... though the nurses aren't that friendly, the residents there are truly funny.. there is one male resident that i came across with, when we are trying to measure him.. i start to make funny faces to him.. guess what? he respond to me by making the funny faces... i am so happy.. hee... it is really very fun to play with them... really enjoy playing with them.. haha...

Today went to seminar.. actually, i really lazy to go.. but in the end, i still go despite that i am lazy or tired.. today, pastor talked about the 5 categories of people.. i really learn a lot from it.. though i missed the first two categories last week, but i still managed to get hold of the notes... hehe... it is truly a blessing to know all these things.. and this is also my first time that i actually went for church-wide bible study.. amazing huh?? in the past, i will try to avoid church-wide bible study, as i am very lazy and tired.. as i live in tampines, my church is in the west.. i really really don't feel like going... as i would also reach home quite late... but when i go for my first time, i am truly blessed by the message... really have no regrets coming to the seminar at all.. though i will reach home late, but i guess it is still worth it after all.. hee...

Well, tomorrow is my off day.. finally can have one day to rest.. hee.. really must make use of the day tomorrow.. er... time for me to go le... hee.. good night..

What A Long Day........

2004-07-07T00:45:00.000+08:00

Long time never update my blog le..... i got a lot of things to write leh.... hee....

Erm.... firstly, i just summarise what i did last week... last week, manage to finish my job at apex early... heee.... so manage to take one day off... at apex, really enjoy myself with the elderly there... hee... it is eventually very fun there... and i enjoy my stay there...

After that, went back to hospital to do some data analysis and foodworks... it was tiring areas i have to face the computer almost whole day.... on thursday, went to assisi home to take a look at the kids there, as we need to think of activities to play with them next friday... really looking forward to this day... wanna bring some joy to these kids.. when i see these kids, i feel pity of them as at such a young age, they contracted cancer... (nearly cry when i saw them....) well, really looking forward to that day....

For friday, which is my off day... i am so happy. haha.. meet up with my friend, and went to walk around in bugis.. after that, went back to tampines to meet my the other friend (suann).. after accompanying her, went to meet my cca friends (raynor and zhi wei).. we intending to watch movie, but raynor had a competition the next day, so we postpone to sunday... hee... so we ended up in kfc and talking crap.... haha... interesting right?? :)

Saturday is a day that i go church.. hee... a real great service... after hearing the message, i am so blessed by it.. it really double confirm my dream for God, which is to sing to the lost. this dream really fulfill my primary purpose, which is to reach out... hee... i feel that i am nearer to my dream... me so excited....

Yeah... sunday fnally came... in the afternoon, raynor came to my hse and help me to do some computer stuff.... guess what... my keyboard is not working... and he can't do much... haiz.... i am so sad... after that, went to watch movie wit cca friends (shan, raynor and zhi wei).... managed to get our movie tickets at 6.31pm for a 6.30pm show... haha.... amazing right???? guess what we watch?? (SPIDERMAN II) haha... is a nice show indeed... haha.. after that, they cheated us to walk until 201 to have dinner... haha... anyway, i do enjoy myself.... haha.....

Oh.... these two days, went to Ling Kwang Home to do the mini nutrition assessment... it is a very tiring job for us as this is the biggest home, which has ard 300 plus residents...our supervisor did warn us that the nurses there aren't that friendly... so we have to prepared our hearts before going there.. indeed, some of the nurses really aren't that friendly... but, we do manage to come across a number of nurses, that are friendly.. and it really speed up our work... hee....

Long Time Never Update Le....

2004-06-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hey hey.... long time never come and update le.. recently, my computer really giving me a lot of headaches.. first, it has virus, so i send for reformat.. but when i take back, the monitor could not be used.. haiz.. secondly, i can't do my project as my computer is really down.. my monitor only show one colour which is red.. this really makes my eyes tired easily.. haiz.. (me so poor thing ah)..

Yesterday, thought can borrow my friend's laptop, but in the end, he got test on the following day, so can't really use much.. in conclusion, i didn't really do much things as the time is quite tight.. haiz.. (me so sad....)

These two days, i spend it at the apex harmony lodge (nursing home).. it is quite enjoyable.. i really do like some of elderly there.. even though they are dementia, they are actually even more friendly than those 'normal' elderly.. hee... i saw one lady carrying one baby doll and treat it like her daughter. the way she coax the baby doll to sleep, is really cute.. hee.. it really make my day.. though i am physically tired for these two days, seeing these elderly really do make my day.. hee..

Tomorrow, need to go back to hospital and do some data entry. erm.. hope it won't be such a boring day.. hehe.... really hope tomorrow can release early.. as i need to go back to school to do research again... haiz...

Wow... I Am Back

2004-06-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hee... two days never come online le... me so happy now.... haha.. but my computer is still not ok yet.... i am also very sad...

I am waiting for someone who is kind hearted enough to help me with my computer stuff... haiz.... hope i can get all this dones as soon as possible.. as i need to hand in my project and i haven do much research now.. so it will be better that my computer can be able to operate normally.. so that i can get my job done... hee....

Well, i think i better don't talk much now... if not my computer will hang easily... hee.....

Wah.. Tiring Day For Me..........

2004-06-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, too tired le.. and my computer keep auto restarting and i can't get my things done.. haiz.... in the end, i just went to sleep, don't even want to care about my computer le... haha..

Anyway, yesterday was my first day at Apex Harmony Lodge.. (erm... you may wonder what is that???) Well, still remember that i am still on attachment, so this is also one of the nursing homes that i need to go for these three months... there is something special about this home, which is everyone who is in this nursing home excluding the staffs there, is demential.. however, most of the residents here are mostly elderly, but there is some who are in their thirties. yesterday, i met a lady who is suffering from dementia and she is just in her thirties.. i feel so pity of her as she is still young, yet she has this disease.. i really wonder how does her husband feel when he know his wife has this... i feel so pity of her....

When i know that this nursing home contains all demential people, frankly speaking, i do have some fear in my heart, as i do not know what they will do to me when i want to take their measurements.. however, when i saw this bunch of elderly yesterday, i feel so happy.. as though they are suffering from this disease, they are eventually very cute... hee... (i am not joking..) there is one particular lady very nice, she even offer to help the staff to push the trolley in.. and they are some who carry their baby dolls around.. i feel warmth in my heart, when i saw this..

Even though they are suffering from this disease, they are very cheerful... though some do not cooperate with us while we are taking the measurements, they in the end still treat us very good (as they forget things very fast)....

Well, today i also met some interesting residents in the nursing home.. i really enjoy myself with them.. though i do not understand what they are trying to tell me, but i always give them a smile, and they are so happy... hee... really happy during these two days... i will be going back to the home for another three more days.. i wish tha this three days will be memorable one.. hee....

Time for me to go to my project le.. hee... bye bye..

What A Lousy Day..........

2004-06-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

Today, went back to hospital.... wanted to do some data entry, but realised that the floppy diskette is spoil and all the data from the nursing homes that we collected were all gone.. we were so sad.. because we need to go back to the nursing homes and re-key in all the data again... haiz..

Today supposedly we are being to attach to the hospital kitchen for a day, as we need to re-key in all the data, we can only go to the kitchen on another day.. haiz.....

But in the morning, we went to the kitchen to do some checking on the food trolleys.. it is very interesting as i get to see some interesting stuff in the hospital.. hee.... after that, me and my friend went to sit in a interview. there are some students from RJC doing on a project regarding nutrition, so they went to make an appointment with the dietician to ask some questions regarding the project.. from this interview, i really learn quite a number of things.. the students ask some questions and made me think what i have learn during these two years in poly.. i realised that i need to put whatever i learn into practice, if not, i really wasted all my efforts for these two years or even three years in poly.. i also realised that i need to read up newspaper more often in order to keep up the trend... if not, i will not be able to know what is the new things in the market that is related to nutrition.. perphaps i should start to read newspaper and listen to news le.. hee... must start to have this habit le....

Alright for all, time to zZzZzZ le.. hee..

The Day After My Birthday.......

2004-06-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today, as usual, i went to work.. this time round, i went to Lions Home (Bedok)... nearly late when i reach the nursing home.. hee.... but due to God's grace, i managed to reach it on the dot.. hee....

This home is currently under renovation and there isn't much residents there.. this home is rather dirty and dusty.. but me and my friend managed to survive it in the end.. hee... some of the elderly are very helpful, but some are not... however, they still allow us to measure them in the end.. so is still considered not bad le.. hee... but there is one lady who didn't allow us to touch her.. i think she is quite insecure and afraid.. the moment she saw us with the measuring tape and knee-length calipers, her face turn white.. then the moment we walk out her room, she is so happy and waving to us good bye... haha.. what a funny lady....

There is also one resident who have a disease that is highly infectious.. so we are being to told to wear gloves and apron when measuring this particular guy.. to me, it is considered as an experience... at first, i thought that he will look a bit abnormal, as i do not know what disease so i just roughly guess how he will look like... but to my surprise, he look normal, so i didn't really feel and fear in my heart... after that, we disinfect all the things that we used, which are measuring tape, knee-length caliper, my pen and even my handphone using spirit.. haha.. (find it strange rite? disinfect my handphone... hee...)

Today, we spent the longest time in this home as we need to key in all the data before we can actually leave the home as we are being scheduled to stay at this home for one day to finish up all the things. so we are really rushing.... haha.. but at the same time, we do have some fun in between...

Tomorrow, we are attached to the kitchen of the hospital and learn to do some of the auditing.. Yeah... new things to learn again.. looking forward.. hee..

My Birthday!!!!!

2004-06-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

Wow.. finally, today is my birthday le.. haha.. i am so happy... have waited for this day for one year le.. heee.....

I am very very happy... those friends that i never expect to wish, all come and wish me 'happy birthday'.. i am so touched... especially, my cca people...

Today, supposedly there is a meeting.. but i never go as i meet my friend for dinner, and i managed to be excused in this meeting.. hee.... guess what, after the meeting, they all message me at the same time.. i am so so so so touched, nearly want to cry when i saw their messages just now... really want to thank them... i really really never regret of joining this cca... it allows me know this bunch of wonderful people.. really want to thank them... Thank you guys (Hui Shan, Raynor, Zhi Wei, Kyo, Derek, Chee Wei, Lester, etc... too many le...) you guys really make my day... :)

Have a wonderful dinner with my another friend (hee. i won't tell you who is it, let you all go guess, guess correctly got prize hor... hee....) when i reach home just now, my mum bought me a chocolate cake.. i am so happy.... thank you, mum...

Well, for my attachment, as usual, i ended early.. didn't really do much today.. for the first half of the day, i do all the data entry thing.. for the whole two hours, trying to figure out how to do the bar charts using microsoft excel (this is the software that i hate... heee...) but, i managed to finish it at the end of the day.. i feel a sense of achievements.. hahaha...

For the second half of the day, me and my friend went to the nursing home (Brighthill Home) with the dietician (which is also my supervisor).. hee.. she is really a nice lady.. along the way, she really teach us a lot of things.. i really learn a lot from her... at this nursing home, i saw one resident, who is severly malnourished.... when i saw him, i feel a tinge of sadness, as i keep thinking what cause him to be so malnourished and refuse to eat... i feel pity for him.. it is really horrible to see his bones and hardly any muscles... haiz.. really hope, he can really consume more food so that he won't be so malnourished......

Wonderful Day..........

2004-06-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

Today, early in the afternoon went to library with my friends, to do some researching for recipes for our project.. this project is rather tedious and it really wasted a lot of my time in it..

After that, rushed down to suntec city (church office) to meet pastor... but to my disappointment, i can't attend.. because the meeting start at 5.30pm.. but i have to meet my poly friends for dinner as we were celebrating my friend's birthday... :(

Together with my poly friends, we went to eat ramen, which is real spicy and we had a lot of laughter there.. we chat a lot, and suddenly, suann accidentally spilled one glass of iced water... thus, hui shan who happened to sit opposite her, had the icy water on her feet. the whole scenrio is real funny.. even the waiters and waitress also keep looking at us.. haha... after that, suann left her handphone pouch at the shop, there was one uncle running after her and say, 'excuse me, your xiao zhu zhu', with very funny tone... it really made us laugh all the way to mrt station.. haha

After that, we went to esplanade for our desserts, which was Haagen Dazs.. we were so high about it... haha... even though i really no much money left, i still enjoy the ice cream... all of us feel like we are princesses.. haha... meanwhile, we took a lot of photos of the ice cream and us (erm.. i think excluding me.. hee..), it is really a fun day of us..

We couldn't bear to leave that place, as we know that next day we got to work again.. haha... but afterall, we really enjoyed ourselves...

Tired Physically But Happy In Heart... :P

2004-06-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

Today went to school, thought can print some notes for my project, but to my disappointment, the school labs are closed when i reached school.. me is so sad... when i want to go up to my locker and take my things, the room is also locked.. i feel so sian.. because i can't complete any things that i supposed to do..

So i decided to go to the library to look up for some information and use the computer there.. as my computer has some virus, which will keep auto restart.. i find it so irritating, as i can't really do my thing properly... anyway, i do find some revelant stuffs that is related to the project.. so it isn't really a bad day after all.. hee...

After that i go to church for service.. it is a great service.. it talk about mission... really learn a lot.. and start to feel that Jesus is coming soon.. and realise that time is real running out.. so want to really make use of the youth that i have to serve God in a great way....

After service, my cell group members help me celebrate my birthday.. i am so happy.. as i think they all forget my birthday le.. hee... but to my surprise, they still remember it... i am very very happy... and they bought me cheese cake (which is my favourite.. heee) and a t-shirt.. it is a very nice t-shirt.. hee... really thank all of them...

After all, today is indeed a tiring day but i am really happy... at least there are still someone remember my birthday.. hee.....

Hee..... Last Day At Lions Home (Toa Payoh)

2004-06-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

Heee...... today is the last day at Lions Home (Toa Payoh).... today, me and my friend manage to finish the work very fast with the aid of the nurses there.. and we can go off at 1pm.. i am so happy.... hee...

Today had a great time at the Lions Home (Toa Payoh).. we went to the first level of the nursing home.. those elderly who are dementia are usually stay in this level.. it is the most least number of elderly in this level compared to the other two levels... those nurses here also help us a lot... we teach them how to measure the knee-length, mid arm circumference and calf circumference.. the next minute, they volunteer themselves to do all these measurements.. thus, it really speed up the work.. really grateful to them..

Those elderly here are very funny.. hee... though they are dementia and i do not really understand what they are saying, when i start to smile with them, i can feel there is a warmth feeling in them... i am so glad...

During this whole week, i really enjoyed myself in Lions Home (Toa Payoh).. i really learn a lot from the elderly and the nurses there... really thanks for their help for these past few days... i really enjoyed the things that i do here... for the next 3 months, i will be going round to other nursing home, i may not meet the same kind of people that i have met in Lions Home (Toa Payoh), but i do believe that it is going to be my learning experience for these 3 months...

After finish the work in Lions Home (Toa Payoh), i meet up my poly friends for dinner as they are celebrating my birthday, which is on 21 june.... though they never give me any birthday gifts, i do enjoy the times that i have with them.. gifts to me aren't that important.. as long as there are still friends who remember my birthday and willing to celebrate with me, i am very very happy le....

Guys, really thanks a lot... i really appreciate what you all have done today... Muacks.....

A Peaceful Day........

2004-06-18T00:40:00.000+08:00

Today, everything went smoothly.. the elderly that me and my friend meet today are very cooperative... thus, we manage to finish the whole level of the elderly...

Tomorrow, we are going to the first level, whoch almost all of them are demential.... frankly speaking, i am a bit scare.. cox i do not know to handle this kind of group of people... i guess i may need some of the nurses' help... it is also our last day at Lions Home Toa Payoh... i do feel a bit sad as overall, these elderly really make my day... i feel that i have brighten alot whenever i see them....

When i saw those nurses play with these elderly, a warm feeling will overwhelm my heart... i suddenly think of my own grandmother at home.. last time i also treat her very coldly as i do not know what to speak to her... and i couldn't really speak her dialect, thus there is some communication breakdown between us... but after goin to this nursing home, i start to appreciate her... i began to strike a conversation with her.. and try my best to talk to her... i also learnt knitting from her.. i am really very glad that my grandmother is still able to do things by her own, unlike those elderly in the nursing home... i am really grateful that she didn't really suffer any major disease... i know she is quite old now.. i really start to cherish any moment that i have with her... because i do not want to regret when she is not around and start to blame myself that i do not spend much time with her.....

This whole week stay in this nursing home, i really learn a lot.. though i may keep repeating the things i do for this whole week, eac day i learn different things... it really change my perspective in life... thank God that i have been attach to these kind of environment.... :)

What A Day!!!!!!

2004-06-16T22:01:00.000+08:00

Today is my second day at Lions Home Toa Payoh... it is very interesting... today, me and my friend need to measure the knee length, calf circumference and mid-arm circumference for all the elderly... we came across some very interesting old ladies...

When i was measuring for one old lady, the lady beside her come and pinch my arm.. i nearly had a shock as i do not know what she want.. so i quickly move away from her.. heee... (me too scare le)

There is another lady who is very helpful... me and my friend were trying to figure out who is who.. she volunteered herself to help us to recognize the people and also help us to communicate with them if they do not understand chinese and english... i am very grateful to her.. even though both of her legs had been amputated.. she still have the cheerful personality in her.. this is one thing that everyone should learn from her....

There is also another old lady who does not want her to touch her... when we try to measure her, she even try to punch us.. luckily, one of the nurses was there, and he managed to stop her... if not, i wondered what will happened to our faces..

From today, i learned that those elderly are like young children, they want someone to dote on them, coax them, praise them.. even if they do not understand what i am trying to tell them... with a smile on my face really melts their hearts.... i am very happy that i am able to work in this kind of environment.. from here, i really learn a lot of things from them... :)

First Day At Lions Home Toa Payoh

2004-06-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day at Lions Home Toa Payoh.. it is an home for elderly.... today my job is to measure the knee length, calf circumference and mid arm circumference.... it is quite a challenging thing to do as not all the elderly know how to speak english or chinese... and mostly they speak dialects, which i can't speak that well.. so end up not all the elderly know what am i talking about... hee...

But the nurses there are very helpful, they help us to communicate with the elderly... hee... really very grateful to them today....

I will be working there for another three days... hope everything will turn out well... heee....

First Day Of Work!!!!

2004-06-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hey, today is my first day of work... it is so exciting.... to my surprise, my supervisor is an ex-lecturer from my school.. she is a very friendly person.... i feel so happy to be under her.. and i guess i have a lot of things to learn from her...

Tomorrow i will be going to my first nursing home which is Lions Home Toa Payoh.... i hope everything will turn out well... i will be meeting those elderly.. i do feel a bit nervous as i scare that i may not be able to communicate well with them... but i guess there will be nurses around to help us along the way...

Today, my supervisor gave us three books and ask us to look do some necessary research and read up some of the information so that tomorrow we will be able to do a good job.. we also learn to use the equipment that measure the knee length.. it is my first time learning this equipment, so it is very fun.. me and my partner also take turns to demonstrate how to measure the mid arm circumference, calf circumference, knee length and some calculation...

I guess tomorrow will be alot of hands-on job... i can't wait for tomorrow to come... hee.. starting to enjoy the things that i have learnt in school...

Moreover, today my supervisor let us off early.. we supposedly to end at 5pm, but she let us go at 3pm.. me and my friend were so happy... hee... guess tonight i need to sleep early.. so that tomorrow i won't feel so sleepy.. hee....

The Day Is Coming.....

2004-06-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be my first day of work.. i am so excited... i went to check up the place earlier of the day... it is indeed quite far from my house.. i nearly took 1 hour to travel.. and i have finally bought my clothes and my covered shoe... really hope that this will be the suitable attire for tomorrow..

Tonite got to sleep early, so that tmorrow i will have the energy to stay throughout tomorrow... hee... Wish me good luck, guys.....

A Happy Day!!!!! :)

2004-06-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

Wah... today wake up very early... need to go school for a programme... i am a facilitator and today this group of participants is actually kids.. it is my first time handling kids and i do find it challenging... however, sometimes these kids could really get on your nerves.. but through this programme, i learned about patience... someone told me this morning that during this programme, the muscle that you need to use most is the heart.. because you need the heart to tolerate the kids, to love and care for them.. this bunch of kids are actually orphans or come from broken families... at first i do pity them, because i somehow or rather will feel for them... so whenever i feel like scolding them, there is something that will stop me from doing, which is sympathy.... from this programme, i do learn a lot. perhaps, when i handle a bunch of kids again, i will do it in another way and view everything in another perspective....

Even though, the early part of the day really make me quite irritated... i do really enjoy the whole thing.. because i realize that kids are easy to be contented, and happy... hee....

What A Exciting Day!!!!

2004-06-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

Hey, today is a real exciting day... i know which company i have been posted to... to my suprise, it is actually Mount Alvernia Hospital... i never dare to dream that i will be posted to hospital.. cox this semester i didn't really score that well, so i am not expecting to be posted to any hospitals.. so i am very very happy... and i also very satisfied with the working hours.. heee.... though it is far from my house, i still enjoy it.. as i take this as a learning experience for me...

I am really looking forward to monday as it will be my first day of work.. wondering what is like.. hee...

However, right now, i need to think about the clothes and shoes to wear as i am told to wear formal and covered shoes.. haiz.. guess this weekend i need to spend it for shopping... hope i will be able to find these things by sunday....

So Nervous.......

2004-06-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

Hey, today just went to school for a briefing on how to use the software for my subject... tomorrow, i will be notified about the attachment thing... really wish that i can go to the company that i want. Really want to go where i can learn something.

I am so nervous. some of friends already knew where they would be posted to.. wonder where will i be posted to....

well, today is a bad day for me... quarrel with one of my friends.. haiz.... hope tomorrow will brighen up my day..... :)

A Fruitful Day For Me............

2004-06-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

Wah.... i had a fruitful day yesterday... it is just that i am too tired yesterday so i didn't write... yesterday, i had a programme in school. it was a real fun event. it was my first time facilitate a group of people. to my surprise, i was not that nervous.. and the whole event turned out well.. i feel so happy...

Yesterday, my cca group gave me a surprise by celebrating my birthday. even though they did not give me cake, but i really appreciate it.. they actually bought me a pouch, which i like it a lot.. we had great fun by throwing water bombs to one another... despite of the water bombs, i really want to thank them for giving me such a surprise, especially raynor and zhi wei.

I am looking forward to another programme, which is held on this coming saturday.. this time, the participants will be kids.. i think it is going to be a challenging task for me...

Wow

2004-06-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, trying to explore this thing.... but i really catch no ball... waiting for someone to help me to get this done... haiz..

well, those who have visited this webbie, do give comments, and leave messages... really appreciate those who have done this.. hee...

well, is time for me to go back an explore again.. hee....

Exciting Day

2004-06-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

wah.... today is a real tiring day for me...

wake up super early to meet my friends to buy some things... slept for few hours only... nearly woke up late.. hee.... went to take my cheque.. but i realised that they have written the wrong name.. i only found out this when i have reached home.. i m so sad... cox i do not have much money with me.. haiz...

today is a saturday... it is a church day for me.. today's message was great.. Pastor said about 7 things that we learned during mission.. he also mentioned what happen during the 8 months mission trip.. it was real exciting, but too bad i can't attend any of those trips.. i feel so pity.. but i will make sure i will go for one these missions trip next time.. hee... i believe it will an eye opener for me..

well, is time for me to zZzZz... if not my eye bag will be even more serious le.. hee....

Hi....

2004-06-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

hi... first time here.. this thing is so cool here.. well.. i m in my fairy land now. welcome anyone to join me.. i do not really noe how to use this thing.. if there is any comment that u wished to write, feel free to do so... n if possible, someone can teach me how to use.. hee... thanz a lot